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[07 Jan 2009|09:33pm] |
Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images
You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick
Well, I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images
And when you left, you kissed my lips
You told me you would never, never forget
These images
No
Well, I'd never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that
Easy to walk right in and out
Of my life?
Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
Should have known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do
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[21 Sep 2008|09:43pm] |
So I weighed myself a couple days ago and found that my weight had pretty much skyrocketed. Since moving home, I've gained about 15 pounds. RIDICULOUS. I'm hoping I can get motivated enough to start going to some Bally's classes or at least taking Cody out for a walk everyday. I'm heavier than I've ever been and it's really depressing. And to add to that, I still can't stop thinking about not having a boyfriend. Of the classmates I've been talking to, about 98% of them are in a relationship. I only know of one other girl who's single ( I think...it's not confirmed) and she's like me. I can't make myself stop thinking about it and I want to since everyone says it'll come when I don't expect it. Screw that. It's like every new environment I put myself in, I'm like..."what if it happens now? what if that next guy around the corner catches my eye and talks to me?" But it never happens. Then I catch a glimpse of myself in a mirror and it's obvious why.
We'll see if this wake-up call actually amounts to anything. But I can't help but think I'm going to fail, just like every other time this has happened. Story of my life.
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| Unemployed....and enjoying it!!! |
[12 Jun 2008|04:54pm] |
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Well, I've been unemployed for a little over a month now, and I must say, quitting my job was a blessing in disguise. The more I thought about it, the more I'm glad I had/have an extra two months to enjoy, prepare, relax, and just be a bum 'cause I probably won't have another chance to be like this...EVER. I'm kind of shocked that a whole month has already passed though...I feel like there's still so much I want to do. I know, there's still a good two months left, so I can still get all that done...maybe. The biggest problem is budget. I have to take out $45,000 in loans just for the first year. And since I haven't been working, my bank account is just on a downward spiral. I debate everyday whether I should just spend my money now and enjoy life, and then live on the loans later cause it's not like I have enough now to live off of for a year, so what's the point of saving it? But then I don't want to start grad school with almost no money of my own...ugh...I don't know.
Oh, I'm switching rooms! I'm trading my room for my mom's sewing room. At first I didn't want to cause it was so much stuff to move, but now I'm really excited cause I get to redecorate and purge out all my junk. Otherwise, my stuff would just sit there for another 3+ years lol. We've moved everything out of the sewing room, and hopefully we'll be painting tomorrow and I can start moving everything this weekend. I went to Ikea yesterday and got some new stuff and spent $180...ugh...and then I ordered my laptop online...another $1000. yeesh! Hmm...still back to money. I need to stop haha.
I saw Wicked a couple weeks ago with Sophie, Jen, and Mas and it was AMAZING!!! I just got the soundtrack from Bertha yesterday and the songs are constantly playing in my head now haha. I want to see it again so bad!
Hmm..maybe if I make a concrete list of things I want to do I'll get them done...wishful thinking haha.
- See Wicked again
- Go to Sea World/San Diego Zoo
- Plan a beach trip/bonfire
- volunteer for Project Angel Food
- Hot air ballooning
- Watch all the movies I've wanted to see but never got a chance to
- Biking on the beach
- Fly a kite
- Apply to some scholarships to lessen the load
- Day in Pasadena with parents
- Huntington library, MOCA, LACMA, etc.
- hmm...now my mind's blank on what else...
Since I'm making lists, here's another of upcoming events:
- 6/13-14 - Nam's graduation yay!!
- 6/19 - Jenny's graduation
- 6/26-29 - Vegas!!!
- 7/17 - Hollywood bowl with parents
- 7/19-25 - Yellowstone?
- 7/26 - Thi's wedding
- 7/31 - Mommy's birthday
I thought I had more to update on, but guess not...til next time then =)
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| Since the New Year |
[26 Mar 2008|11:05pm] |
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Wow, I just totally forgot about livejournal for a while huh? Well, since the new year, lots have changed...some for the better, and some for, well, let's just say different. I'm gonna try to make this a quickie since I need to sleep soon (btw, I've turned into a grandmother who needs to sleep by 11:30 =P). Sooo...in a nutshell, I:
- have been working full-time as a receptionist at an OB-GYN office in Pasadena (loving the nurse (Sue) and the doctor (Dr. Grier), boss is a bit of an interesting character)
- have heard back from almost all the nursing schools I applied to:
- USD: rejected
- WESTERN: accepted =) but with a $500 deposit =(
- UCLA: on the waiting list, #24
- CSUF: had an interview, will hear back early May
- did Dance Marathon as a dancer for the FOURTH time yay! and turned 23 while I was there
- finally got myself a Disneyland Season Pass
- am taking stats and psych online, and ceramics and chinese music which takes up 3 nights/week
- flew up to SF for Easter weekend with the cousins and had a blast!
- am wishing there were more hours in a day
As for everything else, still in the same position as always. Still overweight, still single, still holding a couple grudges that I should just LET GO OF already. But I think I'm slowly coming to terms with it and making peace with myself. No use of holding on to the past. I haven't been as down as I was over New Year's, which is good, but now I'm kind of in this weird limbo where I'm just really anxious to start the next phase of my life, which is nursing school. My days have just become so routine that I'm ready for a change, for something new, but nothing can really change until August. I need the job so I can save up some money, and I need to finish my classes. Oh well, I'll just hang tight and I know August will be here before I know it. I'm just rambling now haha. Ok, time for grandma to go to bed. G'nite!
P.S. - I just finished reading The Alchemist (which was really good by the way) and remembered one of its messages, which I should really try to listen to. It was something along the lines of living for the present, appreciating every moment you are in, because you can't do anything to change the past, and your future happiness is contingent upon what you do now, so might as well make the most of it.
P.P.S. - HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BERTHA!
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WANG LEE HOM
I saw him LIVE...
...in VEGAS.
My life is complete.
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